There is something about this day that I love
I have two sets of wish lists, the first one is the achievable and obviously the other one is the “just-a-wish” list.
On the day that I turn to my legal age, I want to be happy-very happy.
Achievable wish list (so long as resources permit):
- have a full body massage with Miks
- watch 2 big screen movies with Miks
- have some blueberry yogurt
- star gazing
- be at Elbi
- claim my Moonleaf free drink
- be with the people I love and who loves me
- new cellphone, still N95
- or maybe an i-phone (wish my fingers will also shrink a bit)
- be at Subic
- see a real dolphin
- and kiss that dolphin
I just wanna have some good time
Life is always about Perspective, how you want to see things.
January 1 is way over and yet this will be my first blog for the year. I actually don’t mind. I have this mental anguish that needs to be put into writing.
2012 is a perfect mix of my bitter-sweet moments.
I finished my challenging thesis and graduated with latin honors. I can still clearly picture the exact time when I was holding my all-signed college clearance, telling me to get ready to rock and roll. The best part is the fairytale night of marching towards the graduation grounds wearing a black toga to the sound of the graduation march. The four-hell years ended.
I also had a fair share of summer vacation although not a blog-material, which means I was not able to go out on a beach or have some exotic mountain camp, but something that is full of rest and sleep.
2012 also marked the start of my “fulfilling-the-life-time- dream” chapter because I entered law school. The first few days were exciting and succeeding months were exhausting. It was also during this year that I had my ultimate breakdown as I experience my first skyfall.
But the in-betweens of my 2012 are always the fun stuff. I would always have love-filled weekends with Miks and it always give me a weekend dose of strength to carry on life.
I want 2013 to be better. It don’t expect it to be more of sweets than bitter moments. In fact, I am getting more prepared to face more bitter ones.
At the least, I want 2013 to make me a better person. I want to grow more mature in dealing with life and its facets, may it be successes, failures, problems, and many others.
May 2013 give me a year full of learning and love.
Promise to write after your midterm examinations.
It is, indeed, hard to speak conscientiously but it is harder to listen earnestly.
I will surrender myself because I want to continue fighting. I still have this one chance, one last chance to still make it through. Father, help me to get through this.
After I get through this and be able to accept things, I am sure I will be a better person. The bonus is, nothing can ever hurt me anymore.
*I am smiling because this is something not everybody can afford to do at times like this.
What happened tonight really broke my heart. This strange feeling crushed everything that I have, specially my self-esteem. I cannot clearly express the pain that is rushing through me but I know deep-down I feel really sad. Father, help me find the reason for this pain. Help me get through this, without me losing myself. Father, cradle me to sleep and make me wake up with the promise of a better day. Father, guide me through this pain.
PS. Thank you for sending two angels that made me smile and laugh to somehow ease the pain.
Last November 23, I found myself browsing architectural designs of homes and interior designs of houses, not to discount the fact that I am supposed to be studying. Consequently, I became very interested with furniture designs and the highlight of it all, I was deeply engrossed with looking at different designs of home libraries. And because of that, I stopped studying, grabbed my sketch pad and pencil, and started drawing.
I envision a home library that is conducive for a “comfy” and worthwhile reading. I envision a home library that is unconventionally designed but serves its ordinary purpose. I want a home library that somehow looks like this.